Sort of out of the blue, I came to the absolute conclusion that I want to be a mother. I've always loved kids and sort of always assumed that they would be a part of my life someday, but I just knew today that there is no doubt in my mind I want that experience. I want the bond I share with my mother, I want to help grow another person, I want to give and receive unconditional love... For whatever reasons, I just know I want to be someone's parent.
But, here's where the panic set in. Here I am counting down the days until 30. 36 is just a few years beyond that. And THAT is kind of the age I see in my head as the cut off point for having babies. I know it can happen after that, and I'm not opposed to it, but I want to avoid possible health risk, and gosh darn it, I want to be seen as a cool mom, a young mom, not the same age as my kid's friends' grandparents. So that gives me about 6 years to figure out how I'm going to go about becoming a mother. Um, that's NOT alot of time!! Preferably I'd like to go the traditional route...meet someone, fall in love, get married, have discussion about when to start trying and poof, our lives revolve around bottles, bibs and baby speak. But, I'm a reasonable woman of the 21st century, and as many of you know I'm big into planning things out, so can I really just wait around for the "traditional?" I think it's time to make a long term, alternate plan. I'm not afraid to go down the mommy road alone, but what are my options? Sperm bank? Sperm ads? A good friend lending a hand? Adoption? Crazy things to consider, but not out of the realm of possibilities... I mean, unless I meet my soulmate in the next few months, which I'm not counting out but let's be honest, not really counting on, I've got some major thinking to do and time is running out!!
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