Day 20: Trying to stay positive

After 4 days of relaxing, catching up with friends and family, and just plain getting away from the daily grind, I find it incredibly hard to return to work today after a long weekend. It's not that I don't want to see the people, I enjoy my co-workers immensely! But, even as I drove back into town, I could gradually feel the weight on my shoulders increase just thinking about what I had to walk back into. I've never felt this burdened by work before, and such a sense of dread upon returning, which worries and confuses me. Am I just tired of the situation I'm currently in and things will get better in a few weeks when we get fully staffed and I can actually do the job I was hired to do? Or am I just tired of my overall career choice? I constantly fantasize about venturing into a new field, stepping outside what I know to try something different, but how do you really do that without completely losing the safety net? Call me crazy, but I like to know I'm getting a consistent paycheck (however meager it may be) and can pay my bills on time, not to mention have access to health benefits. How do you leave that behind and leap into something unknown? Granted, I've now been up for about 27 hours, so I could just be overtired, which lends itself to overworrying and really letting the mind wander, but the question remains at the root: Am I happy doing what I'm doing? For now, I'm going to try to shake the dread free and approach each day as a new one with a fresh, POSITIVE outlook.