Day 270-271: I know I'm wrong, but I can't help how I feel!

Two and a half weeks. That's how long ago I last saw the BF. I can't help it, but it feels CRAZY long! I was gone the first weekend, and this past weekend was his big golf trip. It was so cute how excited he was for it and he so deserved some R & R, I just wish the weekends weren't back to back! Anyway, I'm sucking it up, cuz I know I'll see him in just a few more days...however, I have to say I'm a little irked. When he mentioned how he was going to spend the last few days of his vacation just chilling at home, I merely suggested he come here to do it, therefore spending some time with me. The words were barely out of my mouth before he shot the suggestion down. WTF? I didn't DEMAND he come here, and while I know it was me being selfish because of how badly I wanted to see him, I don't think it was that far into left field to make the suggestion. I KNOW the weekend's only a few more days away, and I can see the reason of not making the drive out here now only to turn around and do it again a few days later. Not to mention I have to work, which wouldn't be all that much fun for him...but, I can't help but feel a little hurt. Good grief, listen to me...suck it up, Linds. Stop being so freaking sensitive! I'm going to bed...one more day closer to the weekend.