Day 195: Therapy...why not?

Sooo...I'm heading to a therapist today. I'm putting this out there because I'm not ashamed of it, and I think it's something more people should consider. I'm not shy about telling people about the time I spent trying to climb out of a clinical depression about 9 years ago. I hope my story can help others. I didn't like how I felt, I sought help and I learned how to like myself, to appreciate my contribution. Anyway, all these years later I'm starting to feel some of these dark feelings creep back, some of these feelings of self-hatred, and "I'm not good enoughs." I realize my un-ideal job situation may have contributed to this, maybe approaching 30 without having reached certain goals, even being in a serious relationship for the first time, as I'm wondering and worrying about things in a whole new way! Whatever it is, I can feel the prickle of fear that I'm teetering on an edge of staying positive and confident and falling backwards into doubt. So, I'm being proactive and talking to someone. WHY am I feeling this way, and HOW can I stop it before it gets out of hand? I'm scared, nervous, worried and anxious...but I'm also strong enough to know I need help and I'm not going to stop til I look in the mirror, like the person staring back at me again, and know she deserves to be happy.