Day 185: Sad. :(

I know I'm going to see him again, probably next weekend. I know I'm going to text him in the morning. I know I'm going to talk to him tomorrow afternoon...and most likely every afternoon this week. But, leaving him and driving home from New Jersey today just made me so sad. I couldn't shake it. It was a great few days, from our trip to Atlantic City, to the excitement leading up to his party, to his too early arrival and surprising us trying to surprise him, to hanging with him as he introduced me to everyone to seeing him in his environment with his people to snuggling up with him on a slightly uncomfortable pull out couch to waking up to his adorable niece and nephew in their pjs. But, then I had to climb into my cold car and drive back to PA all alone, to my empty apartment and looming silence. I know I'm tired, so that doesn't help, and I know it's kind of the fall from the high of the planning and the looking forward to the weekend, but I also know it just plain sucks to only see each other once a week. And, damn it if it doesn't get harder and harder to say goodbye to him each weekend. *sigh* Until this point in my life, the only people I've ever had that dreaded, leaving you-driving away feeling with is my Mom, my Gramma, my brother and the Chad. What does this mean?