Day 197 - 199: Hangovers, lasers and blindness...one for the books.

Oh boy, what a weekend. First, a night out with the girls Friday. Of course, there was plenty of drinks, not too much dancing for one, but lots of gossip, giggling and more drinks. Let's just say my apartment looked like a bomb had gone off the next morning! Nothing that a little picking up, throwing out, vacuum and oh year, RUG CLEANER couldn't fix though... ;) My lips are sealed...

Anyway, if that weren't enough, I had to recuperate quick for a night of what else, laser tag! That's right, us 30 year olds were reverting back to our teen years for the night for a night of running around barriers in vests shooting each other with red lasers. Except this time we were pre-gaming and post-gaming with beer... Now, as much as I'd like to say I kicked ass, I'm just not aggressive and pretty much hid in a corner. I tried! And, I had fun! But, I just don't think it's my thing... Give me a nice board game though and you're toast.

So after a night of shooting each other, I come home to ease my aching eyes by taking out my contacts, I reach for my glasses only to find them gone. I looked everywhere! I know they're sitting on a ledge somewhere, laughing at me as I crawl around the apartment looking in every nook and cranny...but for now, once I pop out the contacts the world is fuzzy to me. Coincidentally I had already made an appointment for an eye exam for this week to renew my contacts prescription...looks like I'm getting glasses, too!

Day 196: Need a laugh?

A little funny to share with you all... Meet Mitch Fatel, a favorite comedian I just rediscovered while looking for a little funny today. I can't quite tell if he is actually "special" or if it's part of the act. But, it's freaking H-I-larious and that's all that really matters. Plus, I think you should all be impressed with the fact that I figured out how to repost this video from YouTube instead of just including the link!

A few other comedians that have recently pinged my funny radar:

* Stephen Lynch
* Josh Reed
* Nick Swardson
* Mike Birbiglia

You can find clips of them all on comedycentral.com. Check them out if you need a little giggle. :)

Day 195: Therapy...why not?

Sooo...I'm heading to a therapist today. I'm putting this out there because I'm not ashamed of it, and I think it's something more people should consider. I'm not shy about telling people about the time I spent trying to climb out of a clinical depression about 9 years ago. I hope my story can help others. I didn't like how I felt, I sought help and I learned how to like myself, to appreciate my contribution. Anyway, all these years later I'm starting to feel some of these dark feelings creep back, some of these feelings of self-hatred, and "I'm not good enoughs." I realize my un-ideal job situation may have contributed to this, maybe approaching 30 without having reached certain goals, even being in a serious relationship for the first time, as I'm wondering and worrying about things in a whole new way! Whatever it is, I can feel the prickle of fear that I'm teetering on an edge of staying positive and confident and falling backwards into doubt. So, I'm being proactive and talking to someone. WHY am I feeling this way, and HOW can I stop it before it gets out of hand? I'm scared, nervous, worried and anxious...but I'm also strong enough to know I need help and I'm not going to stop til I look in the mirror, like the person staring back at me again, and know she deserves to be happy.

Day 194: I'm breaking up with the USPS

For the second time in a week, my trip to the post office has left me agitated and ready to pull my hair out. I don't know if it's just my luck or pure coincidence, but we don't mesh well together. Both times I've arrived at the post office with an easy, pre-addressed, 2 day priority package. No perishables, no insurance, should take me less than 5 minutes. Wrong. I wound up sitting there for almost 20 minutes each time. Granted, I had to wait in line and that's okay, I'm patient. However, NOT patient enough to sit there while someone tries to send something overseas, can't calculate the insurance they want, and oh yeah, has very broken English, which makes understanding how to mail overseas with insurance very easy, of course. I can even wait for that person, because, hey, it's not their fault, they're trying, and there's a second cashier. But wait, that second cashier is dealing with someone sending a package... a box that looks like it's been through the dishwasher and doesn't look like it's going to make it from the counter to the bin, let alone all the way to Ohio. The woman sending it is told to re-tape it...to which she responds, "yeah, I thought I should do that." SO WHY DIDN'T YOU??? Sorry USPS, we're on a break. I'm going to date UPS.

Day 193: What happened to manners?

More and more frequently I am encountered by just plain rudeness. Now, I'm not talking about friends or say co-workers, anyone you happen to be on good terms with. But, in the general public...when you go to the store, stop at the gas station, mill around a festival, wait in line at the bank, etc...what happened to holding the door for someone? And if you're the person who actually DOES hold the door, what happened to a thank you? How about saying "excuse me" when you're trying to get around someone? I was at the grocery store today and I picked up something another person dropped in the aisle...the other person simply looked at me and walked away! I was floored! More often, I feel like people are only out to help themselves, and screw over whomever gets in their way. Is this becoming the society norm? Will general manners go completely out the window? And, if you happen to be on the receiving end of rudeness, what happened to taking the high road instead of getting revenge? I'm making a pledge right now to maintain my manners, and I ask you to do the same. A world without simple, everyday niceties is not a world I want to live in...so I'll try and do my part to keep it on the happy side, will you?

Day 192: I think too much

Turns out I didn't have to fret. He came, we went to dinner, had some drinks and an overall good time. Plus, there was lots of lazy snuggling on the couch all today. I'm kind of lucky. :)

Day 191: Too much to ask?

So huge bummer. Mr. O may not be coming today! He's having a super crappy day at work, putting in extra hours and likely not getting done til late this afternoon. He called to fill me in, and the moment he said "I don't think I'm going to come tonight" I felt so disappointed! I was almost a little surprised at how disappointed I was! So, I can completely understand not wanting to make the drive after a long, crappy day at work, but if I don't see him tonight, I don't see him again for another week. Is it too much to ask him to try and come? To tell him how much it would mean to me? I'm trying to sweeten the deal by promising dinner, beer and a movie night in when he gets here, but really, I just want to spend time with him...do I have a right to ask? Is that stepping over a line? And, do I really want to the answer if it's a firm "no, I'm not coming?" So, now I'm disappointed and anxious that he would say no IF I asked...yet still holding out the hope that all will turn around and he'll call me on the road to Lancaster. Good grief, Linds, stop worrying! If I don't get to see him, I'll survive. There's always next weekend, silly. :)